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                                                                                    “问题不在于小孩的份上吧，要真有了，又不是没有办法解决，重点还在于你要不要生的问题。”                                                                                                             林淼淼伸手戳我的脑袋，明显事情不发生在她的身上，她是站着说话不腰疼。                                                                                                             的确也是的，现在医学那么的发达，又不像是几十年那样，要是真的不幸了，一个小手术的时间就能ga0定。                                                                                                             但是……                                                                                                             光是想想，我都觉得有些残忍。                                                                                                             “唔，我买了那么多次彩票，连五块钱都没有中过，应该不会那么幸运吧？”我g笑着，要是真的不幸有了，我就切掉李澈的h瓜算了。                                                                                                             “你就抱着这种侥幸的心态一直下去算了！”林淼淼眼神之中无尽的鄙视，“g脆一直就等到你肚子大起来算了！”                                                                                                             “嘿，我说林淼淼你一天不亏我你就不安心是吧？”                                                                                                             我怨念无b，她就不能说点好听点的话来安慰安慰我那焦躁的心情。                                                                                                             “我跟你说，这莫非定律说了，你越不想发生的事情它越会发生。你越担心有吧，指不定哪天你就真的有了。”                                                                                                             林淼淼喝了一口咖啡，表情高深莫测，十足神棍的样子。                                                                                                             唔……                                                                                                             “难道你要让我希望怀上不可么？”                                                                                                             我苍凉远目，这g本就怎么想都不对啊！                                                                                                             “乖，别想了别想了……”林淼淼m了m我的头，低声安慰着。                                                                                                             之前说的那么的犀利，现在又要我什么都不想，哪有这么轻松的事情啊，我喝着自己手上的咖啡，决定把林淼淼说的都当做是废话。                                                                                                             “怎么，你今天逛街了”                                                                                                             林淼淼伸手打开了我放在一边的衣服袋子，里面是我刚刚买的一身新衣服。                                                                                                             “恩，刚逛了一圈，然后看到好就买了，现在的衣服你说价格那么高，但是还是一大堆人和不要钱一样的哄抢！”                                                                                                             说起这衣服，我就觉得有点郁闷，刚刚逛了一趟商场，特别好的好货买不起，一般x的好货大家一起抢，而且还不是周末呢，到处都是人挤人的，逛了一圈都觉得有些腻烦。                                                                                                             然后就跑来了林淼淼幼儿园附近的，反正这个时候那群小毛孩子都在午睡的时候，还能够拉人出来喝杯咖啡。                                                                                                             “那你不也是哄抢回来了么！”林淼淼笑我。                                                                                                             也对，姐也哄抢了一把，现在购物还好，要是等到圣诞或者新年的时候，那个时候才是真的人山人海，那个时候去购物才叫真的痛苦。                                                                                                             “刷他的卡？”林淼淼问我。                                                                                                             “怎么可能？！”我惊讶无b，对于林淼淼的话震撼无b，我怎么可能会去刷他的卡我又不是没是钱。                                                                                                             “恩？”                                                                                                             林淼淼支着下巴。                                                                                                             “所以，你花销还是你自己的？”                                                                                                             我点头，我从来没有花男人钱的习惯存在，当然，我爸的除外。在恋ai的时候，我也不曾真的想要把对方当做饭卡或者是提款机的想法存在，以前在没戴钱包的情况下问；李澈借的钱我也不曾借钱不还啊。                                                                                                             正所谓有借有还再借不难，这样想想，姐多纯良啊。                                                                                                             “在你身上还真的没有一点潜规则的感觉。”林淼淼叹了一口气。                                                                                                             “原本就不算是潜规则啊。”                                                                                                             我抗议，我哪里有被潜的样子，g本一点都不像吧。                                                                                                             “喂，你给他买衣服？”                                                                                                             林淼淼接着看着我的衣服袋子，在另外一个袋子里面是一套男士西装。                                                                                                             “怎么可能！”我怪叫，“那是我爸的衣服！”                                                                                                             不要那么敏感，不要觉得是男士的衣服就是给他买的，多冤枉啊，那家伙最不缺的就是西装衬衫一类的，哪里还需要我去买。                                                                                                             “无缘无故买了那么多东西g嘛？”林淼淼翻过那一个又一个的袋子，咂舌，“你中五百万了？”                                                                                                             “哪能！”                                                                                                             我叹气，要是中五百万就好了，我就可以t验一下富婆的感受了，哪用在那边辛辛苦苦上班赚那么丁点的工资。                                                                                                             “还不是阿砚，那小鬼这个周末要结婚了。”                                                                                                             我皱了皱眉头，阿砚是我的堂弟，全名叫做凌砚，b我小两岁。                                                                                                             在他才丁点大的时候，我叔和婶离了，是我nn一手带大的，但是其中也有我妈一般的功劳，他从小和我腻歪在一起，我学会自个吃饭的时候，他只会管我妈喊妈，我老娘就得一口一口喂着他吃饭。                                                                                                             从幼儿园，小学，初中，高中一路过来，这小子就像是个跟p虫一样一路跟上来，直到大学没有靠上我在的z大他才没有跟上来。                                                                                                             但是这一转眼的，这混蛋居然b我这个当jiejie先结婚了，可想而知，这次回去免不得被亲戚一顿念了。                                                                                                             果然白云苍狗，一下子那个曾经跟在我pgu后头的小鬼都要结婚了，而姐我还没找到良人，总觉得有点讽刺的味道……                                                                                                             林淼淼也皱了皱眉，相信的此时此刻她的感觉是和我差不多的，她看了看手表，站起了身。                                                                                                             “我得回去了，那群小p孩们也差不多该醒了。”                                                                                                             “下次见。”                                                                                                             我点头，看着林淼淼推开星巴克的门，然后出去，接着穿过马路渐渐地走远，突然地，只觉得好像很闲的人，只有我一个。                                                                                                             李澈当然不像是我，停摆了工作之后游手好闲，他勤奋的让我都觉得有些丢脸，但是转念一想，我有一点b他好，我绝对不会过劳si。                                                                                                             才回来没多久，刚给自己倒了一杯水喝的时候，就有人按了门铃。                                                                                                             这个时候，谁会来这里？该不会是李澈的爸妈吧？                                                                                                             背后总隐约有点发凉，我想了想，也不知道该应声还是应该装作这个家里面没有人，但是在纠结了半天之后，我决定还是去门口透过那猫眼看看。                                                                                                             透过那猫眼一看，我倒是淡定了，因为来人熟的狠。                                                                                                             我舒了一口气，然后把门给打开了。                                                                                                             “李澈现在不在家，有事的话不如等晚上他回来？”我脸上带着笑，看着站在房门外的人，突然觉得自己这种姿态还有点nv主人的味道。                                                                                                             屋外站着我那不知道前几任的男友，而我站在一个不算是现男友的屋子里面摆着nv主人的姿态，瞧这苦b的人生。                                                                                                             “我不找他，我找你。”靳骐看着我，一字一顿。                                                                                                             听着他这说辞，我怎么就觉得我像是欠了他钱不还还带跑路的味道。                                                                                                             “好。”                                                                                                             我点头，然后退开了身，让他进门来。                                                                                                             “要喝茶吗？”                                                                                                             我看着靳骐在客厅的沙发上坐下，很是顺口地问着。                                                                                                             靳骐微微皱了皱眉。                                                                                                             “给我一杯水吧！”                                                                                                             我进了厨房去给他倒水，端了水出来的时候，他依旧坐在沙发上，维持的是和刚刚差不多的动作，有点发呆的样子。                                                                                                             我把水递过去，他接了过去，端在手心，没有要喝的感觉，等到后来的时候。                                                                                                             “有事么？”                                                                                                             我坐在另外一边的沙发上，看着靳骐。                                                                                                             他是特地来的吧，我想，明知道今天不是周末，李澈不可能会在家，挑这种时间点上门来要说是找李澈，别说他了，连我都不相信这个借口。                                                                                                             当然的，我也不是欣赏他的直白，只是这不拐弯抹角让我觉得不需要多费思量也挺好的。论玩心思论玩手段，我都不是他们两个的对手，g心斗角不是咱这种小白型号的人该做的事情。                                                                                                             “阿墨……”                                                                                                             靳骐清了清嗓子开口。                                                                                                             “你是不是在报复我？”靳骐问我，表情严肃，声音更加严肃。                                                                                                             我默然。                                                                                                             他自我感觉似乎太良好了，良好到我很想打击的一下冲动。                                                                                                             “唉，这都多少年了，我谈的男人次数又不是只有一次两次，要报复早报复完了，哪能现在才来报复……”                                                                                                             我扬高了声调，也不知道是不是有心，我总觉得我在说这话的时候，像是带了点嘲讽的味道。                                                                                                             好吧，我是真的带了嘲讽的意味，很明显的，靳骐也听出来了，他的脸se黑了。                                                                                                             “阿墨，你就非要那么和我说话不可么？”                                                                                                             靳骐问着，声音透着点痛苦。                                                                                                             我想他真的不懂得什么叫做痛苦，因为他真的没有痛苦过，没有t会过那种心里面空荡一片的味道。                                                                                                             他可以光鲜亮丽，顶着海g的头衔，他可以身价百倍，顶着一个继承人的身份，他可以身边美nv如云……                                                                                                             他从来都不曾真正尝到过那种痛苦的味道。                                                                                                             第三十九章                                                                                                             我自认为我说话还是挺得t的，要是真的不得t，刚刚那一杯水不是塞到他的手上而是直接泼他脸上了。                                                                                                             所以，我的容忍限度还是挺大的。                                                                                                             “你别想太多，我一直挺嘴欠的，这一点，认识的人都知道。”                                                                                                             我抓了抓头发，我一向如此，按照文雅和依依的话，我说话时不时会在别人都没有意识到时候语出惊人，这个我也没有什么办法，一切都是要淡定啊。                                                                                                             “阿墨，你是不是觉得我特别讨厌？”                                                                                                             靳骐问。                                                                                                             真不容易，这哥们终于看出这点端倪来了。                                                                                                             “讨厌吧，也算不上。”                                                                                                             我说，反正最讨厌的时候已经过去了，现在，算不上特别讨厌，但是也绝对不算是对他还有其他的好感。                                                                                                             虽然人都有点贱骨心理，可那么多年过去了还指望着和这个男人旧情复燃，或者那种回首过来前程尽忘，或者说在抛弃多年之后回过头来随随便便来一句“对不起”，然后nv主就会原谅，来个he结尾的剧情小说看着是觉得不错，但是这种事情放在自己身上的时候，我觉得那种大方的原谅，然后破镜重圆的故事是属于童话。                                                                                                             “反正我们之间也早就已经成了那过去式了。”我无b淡定，“而且天涯上的姐妹们也说了，谁没在年轻的时候遇上那一两个渣男过。”                                                                                                             在靳骐走的时候，有很长一段时间，我无法淡定，成为文雅之后经常会在各大网站上转悠的孩子，灌贴，留言，置顶这些事情都g过，后来在别人的经历之中寻求到了平衡，至少我遇上的人不是什么咆哮教主或者有自nve或者nve人。                                                                                                             谁没在年轻的时候遇上那一辆渣男或是jp，神马都是浮云啊，这就是素未谋面的论坛姐妹们给的最好定论。                                                                                                             所以，姐也只是运气不好，在青春里面遇上了一个渣男。                                                                                                             曾经何时，有那么一个渣男，他只骗了一阵子，骗了se。                                                                                                             曾经何时，有那么一个渣男，他骗了一辈子，骗财骗se又骗情。                                                                                                             我挺幸运的，遇上的渣男，除了感情以外，似乎什么都没有得到，当然的，我除了感情以外，也什么都没有失去。                                                                                                             靳骐的脸se又黑了，大约我刚刚说的那句话又让他觉得不爽了吧，但是对不起，在我的概念里面，他的确是一个渣男不错。                                                                                                             “那么多年了，你不一定还喜欢着我，当然的，也不可能会ai我一类的。”                                                                                                             我支着下巴，看着靳骐，很多话从见面的时候我就一直很想说了，但是一直因为估计一些原因所以才没有开口，但是今天他话都说到这个份上了，我要是还什么都不说，这看上去就像是被人一直踩在脚下什么都说不出口呢。                                                                                                             “要是这么一来，你还说你还喜欢我、还ai你，这台词听上去多矫情！”我笑，当然的，靳骐也没有这么说过，要是他这么说了之后，我才真的有点受不了。                                                                                                             “当然的，也许如果你真的说喜欢我，还ai我，但是我们不得不承认，我们中间空窗了那么多年是事实，你还喜欢的可能还是当年大学没有毕业的我。”                                                                                                             就像是我一样，如果现在我还说我喜欢着靳骐，我绝对喜欢的还是在我印象之中的那个靳骐，那个还没有大学毕业会陪着我一起疯一起闹的那个靳骐，而不是现在的这个靳骐，现在这个靳骐，除了那一张脸，剩下的都陌生的可怕。                                                                                                             他不了解现在的我，不了解现在的我是多么的粗俗，当然我也不了解现在的他。                                                                                                             “阿墨，我不是……”                                                                                                             靳骐想要开口解释，但是在我一个眼神的阻止下，他又沉默了。                                                                                                             “别说你不是，你敢打包票说你还觉得我依旧是那个时候的凌墨？”我打断靳骐要说话，这种话说出来我都觉得有点不好意思。                                                                                                             “你觉得难以忘怀，是因为我现在和你表哥李澈在一起吧？”